The List

After almost 3 years of talking about going to Bikram Yoga Teacher Training, it is finally happening for me. Yup… I’m about to leave my life for 9 weeks to pursue one of the big goals on “The List”. What is “The List”? Well, someone once told me that I should write down a list of my goals. Somehow, having your goals in writing makes them just a little more attainable. If you look at the list every so often, you are reminded of your goals, and you work toward achieving them. The list can be ever changing. Circumstances of life can change things. Your mindset can change things. And if your goals change, well, you write a new list.

So that’s The List. I’m leaving on April 26 for Palm Desert, California, to spend 9 weeks with 300 other like-minded people, living, breathing, eating and sleeping Bikram Yoga. (Well, maybe not sleeping!) While some people think I’m about to embark on a 2 month holiday, I’d like to clarify.

Monday - Friday
8:30am - 10:00am Bikram's Basic Yoga Class
10:00am - 12:15pm Lunch Break
12:15pm - 4:00pm Posture Clinic/Lectures
5:00pm - 6:30pm Bikram's Basic Yoga Class
6:30pm - 9:00pm Dinner break
9:00pm - ??? Posture Clinic/Lecture

Saturday
8:00am - 9:30am Bikram's Basic Yoga Class

Sunday
Day of Rest

The schedule is grueling. 11 classes a week, posture clinics and lectures, along with finding the time to fit some studying in, I’m sure sleep will be at a premium! Am I scared? Umm… yeah, dude. I’m nervous, anxious, excited, and curious all in one. I can’t believe that I am leaving a perfectly good job, an even more perfect husband, a lovely home, and my friends, to embark on what is sure to be the biggest challenge of my life. The closer it gets, the more real it feels. The more real it feels, the more excited I get. I’ve never done anything like this before. In my life, I’ve always had a hand to hold, and voices to guide me. I impersonate an air of independence, but deep down, I’m just that insecure little girl who wants to find her place in the world.

Do I think I’m going to find my place in the world here? No. But I do think I’ll come back a better student, a better person… a better me. And hey, maybe I’ll find a little place that I can call my own at the same time.